Christmas Spirit

For some reason I am just not really in the Christmas mood this year. Is anyone else feel the same way I do?! Maybe it's cuz im broke and can't afford to buy any Christmas gifts this year.. I have been trying to think of other ways I could make Christmas gifts but I really can't come up with anyone. Any ideas?

Well this job thing has totally consumed the last 36 hours of my life. My boss tells me last Friday I am going to have to look for a second job because he is cutting me down to part time. What?! He wanted this to take effect this week and I told him, "Absolutely not. You need to give me two weeks." So I am looking for a regular job, plus if I have to get a second job, I will. So if anyone has any suggestions, please feel free to send them my way.

We had our Family Christmas Party this weekend. It was really good to spend time with my family. Even though my mom wasn't there it still was pretty fun. We did the Elephant Christmas or whatever you call it. Everyone kept stealing my gift and I ended up with a $20 gift card to Albertsons (?) I dont even know where an Albertson's is around where I live!! My grandmother got my gift, which was a snuggie! My sister bought a snuggie too, but here's was Cheetah. So, since I was aggrivated with my Albertson's gc I played a trick on my brother. He was trying to get a snuggie so he could give it to his wife (which apparently she doesn't like them and said they are for old people. wtf. I have a snuggie, and i love it. w/e she is a bitch).. well I told him to open my sister's gift, and he actually did. On Sunday I took my neices to McDonald's for lunch and to play. They really love that place. Here is some photos of our aunt/neice time.





Anyway, it's going to be great to go home and see my parents. Especially with all the stress I am under. It'll be good to just sit by the fire, which it's supposed to be cold, and just take in the smell of the woods, the sounds, and the feeling I get when I always go home to visit. I get to see my dad's family this Christmas. Im not as close to my dad's two daughters as I am to Mel and Mike. Well the only one I am really close to is Mel. Mike is in his own little world. My dad's daughters never were really involved in my life. And I know it's wrong but now that Im grown, I think well shit they weren't involved in my life, why should I be involved in theirs? I know that is a stupid/aweful way to think, but I guess you would just have to know the entire story. Which would totally take me days to write.

Oh I was going to post about the Sing Off. Not sure if anyone watched this show but Nick Lachey was the host. It was about occapella groups competing all over the country. The show only lasted a week but it was really good to watch. Anyway, last night was the finale. And one of the judges was one of the guys from Boys II Men. Which I totally didn't realize the entire time I watched the show!! So the final two performed and Nola was announced the winner. I liked both of the final two groups!

Well I hope everyone has a safe holiday. I will try to blog whenever I am out of town.

xoxo.

A little note to the pres.

Someone sent me this email today and I thought it was good enough to post on here:
Dear President Obama,

My name is Harold Estes, approaching 95 on December 13 of this year. People meeting me for the first time don't believe my age because I remain wrinkle free and pretty much mentally alert.

I enlisted in the U.S. Navy in 1934 and served proudly before, during and after WW II retiring as a Master Chief Bos'n Mate. Now I live in a "rest home" located on the western end of Pearl Harbor, allowing me to keep alive the memories of 23 years of service to my country.

One of the benefits of my age, perhaps the only one, is to speak my mind, blunt and direct even to the head man.

So here goes.

I am amazed, angry and determined not to see my country die before I do, but you seem hell bent not to grant me that wish.

I can't figure out what country you are the president of.
You fly around the world telling our friends and enemies despicable lies like:
" We're no longer a Christian nation"
" America is arrogant" - (Your wife even
announced to the world,"America is mean-
spirited. " Please tell her to try preaching
that nonsense to 23 generations of our
war dead buried all over the globe who
died for no other reason than to free a
whole lot of strangers from tyranny and
hopelessness. )
I'd say shame on the both of you, but I don't think you like America, nor do I see an ounce of gratefulness in anything you do, for the obvious gifts this country has given you. To be without shame or gratefulness is a dangerous thing for a man sitting in the White House.

After 9/11 you said," America hasn't lived up to her ideals."

Which ones did you mean? Was it the notion of personal liberty that 11,000 farmers and shopkeepers died for to win independence from the British? Or maybe the ideal that no man should be a slave to another man, that 500,000 men died for in the Civil War? I hope you didn't mean the ideal 470,000 fathers, brothers, husbands, and a lot of fellas I knew personally died for in WWII, because we felt real strongly about not letting any nation push us around, because we stand for freedom.

I don't think you mean the ideal that says equality is better than discrimination. You know the one that a whole lot of white people understood when they helped to get you elected.

Take a little advice from a very old geezer, young man.

Shape up and start acting like an American. If you don't, I'll do what I can to see you get shipped out of that fancy rental on Pennsylvania Avenue. You were elected to lead not to bow, apologize and kiss the hands of murderers and corrupt leaders who still treat their people like slaves.

And just who do you think you are telling the American people not to jump to conclusions and condemn that Muslim major who killed 13 of his fellow soldiers and wounded dozens more. You mean you don't want us to do what you did when that white cop used force to subdue that black college professor in Massachusetts, who was putting up a fight? You don't mind offending the police calling them stupid but you don't want us to offend Muslim fanatics by calling them what they are, terrorists.

One more thing. I realize you never served in the military and never had to defend your country with your life, but you're the Commander-in- Chief now, son. Do your job. When your battle-hardened field General asks you for 40,000 more troops to complete the mission, give them to him. But if you're not in this fight to win, then get out. The life of one American soldier is not worth the best political strategy you're thinking of.

You could be our greatest president because you face the greatest challenge ever presented to any president.

You're not going to restore American greatness by bringing back our bloated economy. That's not our greatest threat. Losing the heart and soul of who we are as Americans is our big fight now.

And I sure as hell don't want to think my president is the enemy in this final battle.

Sincerely,
Harold B. Estes


Now -- I really enjoyed this because this man feels in a lot of ways that I do. A man who doesn't stand behind his country (which he has shown he hasn't) wants us to believe that he is actually going to "better" our country?! Ever single time I see you on tv and listen to you speak, I cringe. Just like I did when you gave your interview with Opera. You dont always answer questions directly, in fact, a lot of times you avoid them and try to praise yourself.

Okay well that was about it but I also found these two website if anyone is interested in more reading:
Against Obama
Universal Health Care: Pros and Cons

True/Not True

You know I really just have to vent about this. Who in there right mind would just come out and tell me "Hey we can't hang out anymore because (mad person) thinks that I am trying to hook up with (---) and so I don't want her mad at me so we just can't hang out anymore okay." First off, can you sound anymore guyish than that? I mean come on seriously. Don't get me wrong I love this (mad person) to death, she is one of my best friends. But everyone who knows (me and mad person) relationship also knows that this is not something we would argue about, nor would she even care about. Second of all, I thought you had balls, use them. Grow up, this is not high school anymore. No one can tell you who you can and can not be friends with. Just like no one can tell me, well with the exception of one person (which I must add I really really respect this persons feelings). And, if she made you feel bad, tell her how you honestly feel. Dont hold back your feelings. Express them. Trust me. This coming from someone who holds back her feelings a lot because she can't express them right and then I end up flipping a lid on someone out of the blue and they are like "WTF?!" Ask Justin :). Thirdly, do I get any say in this?! I did not ask to come into this situation. I am friends with all of you guys and if you guys have a problem, work it out amongst yourselves. Don't get me involved. I had absolutely nothing to do with the situation. I really hate when people people do this. Obviously if (mad person) had a problem with me, she would come to me. ME, NOT YOU. You don't get to make all the decisions for everyone around you just so you can make yourself "feel better" and "not hurt" anyone. Now my opinion to the (mad person), if HE wants to go out and get with (---), that is their problem. If she is not objecting to it that you can't blame it all on him. She is just as guilty and you should be just as upset with her as you are him. Anyway that's it for now. I'll blog once the "DRAMA" that I don't want to be in is resolved. xoxo

Sunday- day of rest and football

So late night I went to the Stoney concert in Ft Worth; it was amaZing! Every time I see him in concert I like him even more. He has that raspy type voice which I love! Hence the reason I like Johnny cash.

Yesterday was very productive. I got up and went to the gym! I did about 35 mins on the elyptical. Then I did leg raises and squats,etc. I'm really proud of myself. It gave me a lot of energy. So much energy that I came home and started cleaning my apartment! It was a walking train wreck. You couldn't even walk in my room without stepping on something! It's super clean now just have to finish up some laundry today; which will be completed after football..
I woke up today and had an amazing conversation with Justin. Here lately he has been so consumed with school it's been hard to have long conversation with him. Plus we have had opposite schedules. But it was great to lay in bed and have a conversation with him. So he has been planning this trip for us which I am super excited about!! Although he won't tell me where we are going. However I like suprises so I can't wait to see what this trip has in store.
Well time for some more football, but here is photos from
Last nights concert:

One Chord Song

Okay so my blog has nothing to do with that title, wellll, it does a little but I love that song. Today has been seriously one of those loooooooong days. I have been busy at work but isn't supposed to be that when your busy with work the time flies by? Well not today; at least not here at least. I think one of the reason is because Im so tired. I went out last night with some friends and danced. I got a lot of compliments on my shirt, wanna see?


Okay okay i know a little silly but whatever. Well tonight I believe I am just going to take it easy. I am going to go to Walmart and get stuff to make homemade vegetable soup. Gosh my mouth is watering right now. I might get a movie from Redbox too since our TV is not working. So get this -- I came home yesterday from work and my roommate told me there was no sound on the TV (yes the volume was up and it wasn't on mute)! It was totally weird because some of the channels actually had sound but they were not the same station. I think we have ourselves a possessed TV!

So tomorrow I get to go see Stoney LaRue. Which is only my favoritest singer in the whole world, well besides Mr.Cash that is! He is playing at Billy Bob's and my friend got tickets and asked me to go since, ahem, I like him so much. Well that's all for now, but check out Stoney's website and listen to some music! xoxo.

Back on the workout plan

I thought that this would be a great blog topic. Whenever I was in High School and college, I worked out a whole lot. Since I was going to UNT, the rec center was free so I took full advantage of it. I thought there was no reason to sign up for a gym when I have one right there. Once I started my senior internship, the workouts seemed to slow down, in fact I found myself at times, rarely going to the gym. I was working 40 hours a week in Mesquite plus I was taking 12 hours of classes. So skip ahead a few years, like until now.. this is the first time in a really long time that I have not had a second job. I was used to the 24-7 schedule and now things have slowed down alot. I have alot more time to do the things that I enjoy to do. I have time to clean WHICH I DONT ENJOY DOING THAT IN THE LEAST, cook, watch tv, and last but not least, workout. Which is the whole point of this blog.. but anyway..
So last week I started out kind of slow. With the weather constantly changing its hard for me to do a lot of cardio because of my knee. My mom used to always say it was growing pains, but i think im pretty much grown up.. I actually skipped Monday but on Tuesday I started doing squats, lunges, high knees, etc. The next day I was extremely sore! So on Wednesday I did my arms and shoulders. Again, Thursday I was still sore. I stuck with it though and worked out my legs. I have worked out every single day this week so far. I am noticing that my legs are getting stronger. Each time I go to the gym I can lift a little more each time. But I wanted to share this awesome video with you guys. I dont know if your like me but it's really hard to get motivated to do situps. For some reason I hate them. But I found this video, it's actually not even a real person. It's like a 3D guy. I have to tell you this video works, it has helped me out a bunch! I was also noticing that they do this workout with your butt, legs, etc. So I most definitely am going to have to try those out. But here's the link to that workout:
AB WORKOUT VIDEO

I guess the big reason that I wanted to start working out again is because it actually makes me feel better. I work a 9-5 job Monday-Friday and sometimes it's hard to actually get up and do anything. I realize though once I do work out I feel ten times better. Im not exhausted, Im alert and awake! Another reason is because I have always been very body conscious. I have had low self esteem growing up and for some reason I always think there is something on my body that I can fix. I guess a lot of the reason I get this way is because I have big boobs. Yep, there you go, I said it. I have big boobs! Not that I wanted them of course, but the Lord blessed me with them.. When I was growing up I thought that that was all guys saw me for. They seemed as if they were more into my body than me as a person. Now back then I was bigger than I am now, but, I was also working out constantly and doing any sport possible. So I guess basically what I am trying to say is that working out makes me feel good, calms me down, and makes me look good.

Fighting Fair

I had an "arguement" this morning. He felt if I was attacking him and I felt as if he was "testing" me.

This is what I found:

Here are Dr. Phil's specific rules for fighting fair.

•Keep it relevant.
Don't bring up old grudges or sore points when they don't belong in a particular argument. Put boundaries around the subject matter so that a fight doesn't deteriorate into a free-for-all.


•Keep it real.
Deal with the issue at hand, not with a symptom of the problem. Get real about what is bothering you, or you will come away from the exchange even more frustrated.


•Avoid character assassination. Stay focused on the issue, rather than deteriorating to the point of attacking your partner personally. Don't let the fight degenerate into name-calling.


•Remain task-oriented.
Know what you want going into the disagreement. If you don't have a goal in mind, you won't know when you've achieved it.


•Allow for your partner to retreat with dignity.
How an argument ends is crucial. Recognize when an olive branch is being extended to you — perhaps in the form of an apology or a joke — and give your partner a face-saving way out of the disagreement.


•Be proportional in your intensity.
Every single thing you disagree about is not an earth-shattering event or issue. You do not have to get mad every time you have a right to be.


•There's a time limit.
Arguments should be temporary, so don't let them get out of hand. Don't allow the ugliness of an argument to stretch on indefinitely.


And since this is my blog I have to express my feelings about this. Fighting with someone who has a very strong opinion, who likes to debate, is very difficult for me. Im not a strong debator nor have I ever been. Sometimes I think that people take advantage of this. And I think alot of times that people get used to this.. Now Im not saying Im perfect by no means, in fact, im pretty far from it. But I can't rebuild something if everytime a fight happens the thing I am trying to rebuild gets thrown in my face. Saying I personally attacked you is just a simple way of saying that Im going to hurt your feelings by saying whatever I can think of to might hurt you. Do you remember that? It doesn't feel good to have something thrown in your face that you try so hard each and everyday to overcome and try to prove. But if that person still gives you really no idication that you have improved..what do you do? Do you just give up? Do you keep trying? And if you do keep trying, will it make a difference? Sometimes I think that you hold things over my head and sometimes I think that you dont really think you have any faults; which I know you dont entirely think that but whenever we argue, you always seem like you think your right and even if your wrong your going to try and prove your right so that you dont have to look like the bad guy and so that you dont have to say your sorry. I don't care if I do absolutely nothing wrong and it's all your fault, I still say Im sorry because I know your upset. Why can't you do the same for me? Why do you have to debate every little thing I say?

I am now a blogger AGAIN

My name is Kandise. And you probably already knew that. I used to blog all throughout college and some of high school. I thought it was a good way to express my feelings because rarely did people ever read what I was actually writing. And if they did, I really didn't care. I never got into keeping the whole "journal/diary" thing. I had horrible hand writing so I probably couldn't even read what I wrote if I tried to reread it. You know that half cursive/half print handwriting thing? That's what I did. But anyway, this new blog is going to keep up with my new life. Graduating college, figuring out my future, my everyday life... so stay tuned