Friday thoughts

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I can't believe something like this would happen. What would be so bad in a nine year old kids live that he would want to die? I know he was at school, but parents need to observe their children more carefully. If your child is displaying actions of sadness or you feel something is wrong, TALK TO YOUR KIDS!! And how in the world would a nine year old kid learn how to do that? It's just so sad and anastonishing that something like this would happen; and in the city in which I live.

On a brighter note:
I am taking everything day by day to make myself a better person. I made a promise to myself that I was going to forget the past and move on. I will no longer let it reflect the relationships I have with other people. I will also work harder at not getting mad at the small things. Well I wouldn't say mad, I'd say more about noticing the small things rather than getting mad at them. But yah anyway I'm definitely going to try and work on that. Next, I need to work on my insecurity issues. A lot of people say "Kandise you have nothing to be insecure about." But like I said I am letting go of the past, the things that made me develop the insecurities, and move on." You know I think I was to that point that I thought I might never be happy; and then whenever I was happy it scared me so much that I ran from happiness because it was something that I was not used to. All these things are going to take a lot of work and I guess I am going to be needing a lot of support but I am sure once I turn these things around in my life I will be the person that I used to be.

Okay so my favorite part of American Idol is the beginning of the season when they have all the funny people on. Can you believe one guy got escorted out in cuffs? Okay now I know some people strictly try out for that show for publicity time. Come on! -- If you can't sing why waste your time? Okay and the guy that ripped his pants? You let him through? He couldn't sing! But seriously my favorite one of the week was that Matt Lawrence guy! I seem him going far so if he does I will definitely be team Matt!!

well thats all for now. hurry up weekend.

xoxo.

southern voice

Day 1
For someone who does't give a sh** you sure do have an odd way of showing it. Texting me, telling me basically how horrible of a person I am, monitoring my facebook. Come on now, you said you don't give a sh** so quit giving a sh**.

I'm too swift on my toes to get caught up with you hoes..hmmm. So I am a hoe now? Two can play this game.

BRIGHTER NOTE:
My boss is out of town so I will be working by my lonesome the next two days. Which really isn't that bad. Tonight I believe I am going to go dancing, for the first time in a while. Well that's all for now.

remember.

History in the making

So I haven't updated in awhile. Well since last week. I went on two job interviews these past weeks.. I wont hear back from one of them until this friday. The other one went well, however, they just did not have a position open for me. My boss is going out of town this week so I have been working more this week than usual. Which is totally okay with me. I have had a cold the past two days. I had it the day after news years but I thought I got rid of it. Yesterday I could barely hold my head up while I was at work. I feel much better today though. Thank goodness!

My new year

So I went to the cotton bowl this weekend! I absolutely love cowboy stadium! But come on Jerry... $8 for one bottles beer? Your crazy. My cheap ass only bought one.. Well all i could afford.

I have to blog about the whole tech situation. Come on are you serious?!!! Now in no way am I saying what Leach supposably did was right; but come on! This is the guy who has taken you to ten bowl games. Who has brought your football team back and off probation. Yea he is crazy and doesn't give the best dating advice (you tube that by the way) but he was a great coach. The way the AD and tx tech handled the situation is not right. The school will be paying a lot more in the long run. Leach will sue your ass and more importantly you have no coach, again. However, good job to the defensive coordinator who brought them the win. I will continue to watch tech next year, however my respect for the football association at tech has gone down tremendously. I will also root for the team Leach coaches. Now, onto Mr. Pussy Adam jones. Act like a man grow some balls and play tackle football. You act like you were gunna get killed if u left that room. By the way, I emphasiZe room because it was a room not a closet as you said. And run to ur daddy none the less? Just because your daddy is somewht of a "big wig" at ESPN... Doesn't mean you can play football!!! Seriously grow up step up and be a man!
Anyway here is a photo from
The cotton bowl:



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Christmas Spirit

For some reason I am just not really in the Christmas mood this year. Is anyone else feel the same way I do?! Maybe it's cuz im broke and can't afford to buy any Christmas gifts this year.. I have been trying to think of other ways I could make Christmas gifts but I really can't come up with anyone. Any ideas?

Well this job thing has totally consumed the last 36 hours of my life. My boss tells me last Friday I am going to have to look for a second job because he is cutting me down to part time. What?! He wanted this to take effect this week and I told him, "Absolutely not. You need to give me two weeks." So I am looking for a regular job, plus if I have to get a second job, I will. So if anyone has any suggestions, please feel free to send them my way.

We had our Family Christmas Party this weekend. It was really good to spend time with my family. Even though my mom wasn't there it still was pretty fun. We did the Elephant Christmas or whatever you call it. Everyone kept stealing my gift and I ended up with a $20 gift card to Albertsons (?) I dont even know where an Albertson's is around where I live!! My grandmother got my gift, which was a snuggie! My sister bought a snuggie too, but here's was Cheetah. So, since I was aggrivated with my Albertson's gc I played a trick on my brother. He was trying to get a snuggie so he could give it to his wife (which apparently she doesn't like them and said they are for old people. wtf. I have a snuggie, and i love it. w/e she is a bitch).. well I told him to open my sister's gift, and he actually did. On Sunday I took my neices to McDonald's for lunch and to play. They really love that place. Here is some photos of our aunt/neice time.





Anyway, it's going to be great to go home and see my parents. Especially with all the stress I am under. It'll be good to just sit by the fire, which it's supposed to be cold, and just take in the smell of the woods, the sounds, and the feeling I get when I always go home to visit. I get to see my dad's family this Christmas. Im not as close to my dad's two daughters as I am to Mel and Mike. Well the only one I am really close to is Mel. Mike is in his own little world. My dad's daughters never were really involved in my life. And I know it's wrong but now that Im grown, I think well shit they weren't involved in my life, why should I be involved in theirs? I know that is a stupid/aweful way to think, but I guess you would just have to know the entire story. Which would totally take me days to write.

Oh I was going to post about the Sing Off. Not sure if anyone watched this show but Nick Lachey was the host. It was about occapella groups competing all over the country. The show only lasted a week but it was really good to watch. Anyway, last night was the finale. And one of the judges was one of the guys from Boys II Men. Which I totally didn't realize the entire time I watched the show!! So the final two performed and Nola was announced the winner. I liked both of the final two groups!

Well I hope everyone has a safe holiday. I will try to blog whenever I am out of town.

xoxo.

A little note to the pres.

Someone sent me this email today and I thought it was good enough to post on here:
Dear President Obama,

My name is Harold Estes, approaching 95 on December 13 of this year. People meeting me for the first time don't believe my age because I remain wrinkle free and pretty much mentally alert.

I enlisted in the U.S. Navy in 1934 and served proudly before, during and after WW II retiring as a Master Chief Bos'n Mate. Now I live in a "rest home" located on the western end of Pearl Harbor, allowing me to keep alive the memories of 23 years of service to my country.

One of the benefits of my age, perhaps the only one, is to speak my mind, blunt and direct even to the head man.

So here goes.

I am amazed, angry and determined not to see my country die before I do, but you seem hell bent not to grant me that wish.

I can't figure out what country you are the president of.
You fly around the world telling our friends and enemies despicable lies like:
" We're no longer a Christian nation"
" America is arrogant" - (Your wife even
announced to the world,"America is mean-
spirited. " Please tell her to try preaching
that nonsense to 23 generations of our
war dead buried all over the globe who
died for no other reason than to free a
whole lot of strangers from tyranny and
hopelessness. )
I'd say shame on the both of you, but I don't think you like America, nor do I see an ounce of gratefulness in anything you do, for the obvious gifts this country has given you. To be without shame or gratefulness is a dangerous thing for a man sitting in the White House.

After 9/11 you said," America hasn't lived up to her ideals."

Which ones did you mean? Was it the notion of personal liberty that 11,000 farmers and shopkeepers died for to win independence from the British? Or maybe the ideal that no man should be a slave to another man, that 500,000 men died for in the Civil War? I hope you didn't mean the ideal 470,000 fathers, brothers, husbands, and a lot of fellas I knew personally died for in WWII, because we felt real strongly about not letting any nation push us around, because we stand for freedom.

I don't think you mean the ideal that says equality is better than discrimination. You know the one that a whole lot of white people understood when they helped to get you elected.

Take a little advice from a very old geezer, young man.

Shape up and start acting like an American. If you don't, I'll do what I can to see you get shipped out of that fancy rental on Pennsylvania Avenue. You were elected to lead not to bow, apologize and kiss the hands of murderers and corrupt leaders who still treat their people like slaves.

And just who do you think you are telling the American people not to jump to conclusions and condemn that Muslim major who killed 13 of his fellow soldiers and wounded dozens more. You mean you don't want us to do what you did when that white cop used force to subdue that black college professor in Massachusetts, who was putting up a fight? You don't mind offending the police calling them stupid but you don't want us to offend Muslim fanatics by calling them what they are, terrorists.

One more thing. I realize you never served in the military and never had to defend your country with your life, but you're the Commander-in- Chief now, son. Do your job. When your battle-hardened field General asks you for 40,000 more troops to complete the mission, give them to him. But if you're not in this fight to win, then get out. The life of one American soldier is not worth the best political strategy you're thinking of.

You could be our greatest president because you face the greatest challenge ever presented to any president.

You're not going to restore American greatness by bringing back our bloated economy. That's not our greatest threat. Losing the heart and soul of who we are as Americans is our big fight now.

And I sure as hell don't want to think my president is the enemy in this final battle.

Sincerely,
Harold B. Estes


Now -- I really enjoyed this because this man feels in a lot of ways that I do. A man who doesn't stand behind his country (which he has shown he hasn't) wants us to believe that he is actually going to "better" our country?! Ever single time I see you on tv and listen to you speak, I cringe. Just like I did when you gave your interview with Opera. You dont always answer questions directly, in fact, a lot of times you avoid them and try to praise yourself.

Okay well that was about it but I also found these two website if anyone is interested in more reading:
Against Obama
Universal Health Care: Pros and Cons

True/Not True

You know I really just have to vent about this. Who in there right mind would just come out and tell me "Hey we can't hang out anymore because (mad person) thinks that I am trying to hook up with (---) and so I don't want her mad at me so we just can't hang out anymore okay." First off, can you sound anymore guyish than that? I mean come on seriously. Don't get me wrong I love this (mad person) to death, she is one of my best friends. But everyone who knows (me and mad person) relationship also knows that this is not something we would argue about, nor would she even care about. Second of all, I thought you had balls, use them. Grow up, this is not high school anymore. No one can tell you who you can and can not be friends with. Just like no one can tell me, well with the exception of one person (which I must add I really really respect this persons feelings). And, if she made you feel bad, tell her how you honestly feel. Dont hold back your feelings. Express them. Trust me. This coming from someone who holds back her feelings a lot because she can't express them right and then I end up flipping a lid on someone out of the blue and they are like "WTF?!" Ask Justin :). Thirdly, do I get any say in this?! I did not ask to come into this situation. I am friends with all of you guys and if you guys have a problem, work it out amongst yourselves. Don't get me involved. I had absolutely nothing to do with the situation. I really hate when people people do this. Obviously if (mad person) had a problem with me, she would come to me. ME, NOT YOU. You don't get to make all the decisions for everyone around you just so you can make yourself "feel better" and "not hurt" anyone. Now my opinion to the (mad person), if HE wants to go out and get with (---), that is their problem. If she is not objecting to it that you can't blame it all on him. She is just as guilty and you should be just as upset with her as you are him. Anyway that's it for now. I'll blog once the "DRAMA" that I don't want to be in is resolved. xoxo